A Cry of Pain a Sign of Life

Strange angel knife murderess between tragedy because tormented so inclined fatally towards suffering occasional ensemble Bacchae or was it Oberon dream version miracles a cry of pain a sign of life a murderess a seeker of revenge a bloody story permitted triumph of this human world carried up to the heavens in a chariot pulled by dragons sent for her assistance by Helios the sun god she is herself a celestial manifestation must escape with her life this mythical time future past other tasks carrying the corpses of her murdered children wafting upwards into heavenly heights unobstructed and unpunished and untouched intervenes risen up to the skies while below collapses chorus of Corinthian women can only register the inpenetrability of the divine will from the distance a sign of life a cry of pain a terrible evening groan circle closes wrested by destiny unfortunate heart rising anger rising in moments of human stillness speechless torment until the raging soul comes to rest a quiet cold statue of oneself in a process of defamiliarization.  Inconspicuous, black, desperate, alone.

A wall of ribbed steel a round black area a semi-circular pit old men hanging around at a village square or sitting at the tables of a cafe a rival a poisoned garment in an aquarium filled with red light as two cruel lanky dolls armored in leather with balanced eyes turned upwards arms wildly waving powerful mysterious magical exotic charm erect with her deathly pale face framed in a wig's dark curls mastering both silent pain and odious scolding grows into the statue of a grandiose tragedian. 

Silence transformed into explosive movement by dark church music and veridescent aroma of cut grass.  dynamic expression through violent acrobatics.  female phantasies to the point of nightmare.  to the theme of "man".  dreaming woman.  silence prevails in the breaks.  eroticism.  restlessness.  destruction.

Superimpose one universe over another.  interpenetrated struggle of new seeing.  transposition of constructivistic geometrical abstractions.  images across time and space.

Traces of life watching death at work.  dusty forgotten relics of their own past.  blocking time.  they cannot defy this all-consuming force. 

Electronic paintings of the end of the world.  decode the brain patterns of a sleeper.  transpose these electro-magnetic waves of the cerebral cortex's visual center into computer generated images.  the impression of something painted.  large-format reverse-lit diapositives are dominated by poisonous green and the screeching clash of pink and violet.  a defamiliarizing vague outline.  a portrait of a memory.  a means of insuring against loss of time.  a mental landscape.  a brief involvement with the phantastic, surreal, and strange.  a reflection of reality.  the quintessential impressionistic iconography of the mind. 

A poetry of directed chance employing found fragments of reality.  an artistic processing of impressions of reality and the individual experience of time.  one may not be able to effectively overthrow time but one may indeed hazard to postpone infinity.

A number of highly atmospheric melancholy blue fire images blaze in an interdisciplinary association of seemingly disparate subject-matter providing ridiculously amazing structural and thematic parallels. 

a fashionable ghost town with fashionable bars. 

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     "...maximum forty kilowatt output cables are to be expected shine requirements at night and weather lasting up to the way of dry lead acid capacity of weather lasts longer than winter a liquid gas during the first two modules have covered thirds of energy provided by good solar unit can supply the percent after three years..."

     "Electricity from wet biomass is up to five times more expensive.  sewage sludge and animal excrement must first be fermented before the methane gas it contains may be appropriately utilized..."

     "The fudge volcano will be erupting for the next one hour.  up to your elbows in cow flesh.  beware the lusty pleasures of the bed..."

     "A test of memory a test of instinctive skill..."

     "Otherworldly zombies invading my catacomb.  rubbing legs like coked-up crickets.  rubbing hogs like otherworldly cooks.  coked up cogs float cops.  insect leg tomb.  world invaders.  cooked zombies rub crickets.  Legs Bambino rub out.  crickets squawk.  cooked cocks.  fight in the red.  better than dead..."

     "Enter pollen world.  yellow coke.  cooked articles.  microscopic silicon.  build a city on a chip.  obliterate all previous manifestations of human endeavor.  nullify any and/or all thoughts displaying contra prenatal convictions.  namely living..."

     "Dark discovery."

     "Read you loud and clear Chancellor."   

Cannibalistic word particle flavors the pot whilst consuming a few of its own kind.  a self-negating idea flawed in Language Truth and Logic.  eats not only itself but its Creator.  a mutant of the worst kind.  erroneous in its very conception.

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Industrialized peasants tractor blue waste crepes propounding negligent proficiency chicken crops floating ocean lining surface birth dump.  terrestrial protegé involving voluntary revolver deterministic agency fiords and ice flow over the thrashed dreams of farmers shaded sparrow raw and gliding tasteless requiring salt and dogs of the sea her vanish in a vortex of silence.  only the best young lads are deserving of fudge.  confectionary delight performs buds of taste like sun a-super-nova-ing.  a king on his throne emits purple turds.  dream across bloody parking lot attendant Philosoph curving in sensuous abandon blonde hair trapped in carbon breeze crystal reports transistor outnumber valley of silicon repose twist coat vulture descending sundry death scenes.  you get used but you get used to it.  indigo crown clown varnish dug out canoe you have to strategically salivate keeps the cherry from perpetuating itself makes a goddamn mess of the joint.  shaking a home run from his bat the player prances about like a fairy pony with the trots.  the crowd becomes a wilderness of beasts and burdens full of complex bothersome clichés.  the Word eats itself.  to insatiate masses the Maker advertises delicious flour and water clam up dirtholes for a Flood or so.  screaming poets blaze for an instant then pop in effervescent negativity swallowed by a wormhole of their own creation end up in some reverse time chamber. instead of time being a continuum

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here it is a series of random points hopping in no particular pattern everytime at once or never or something which our contrived wristwatches cannot in any sense whatsoever capture:

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or something of the unreproducable sort.

Seeds sprout in fertile assholes . . . one look and her brain went out like a dead halogen . . . governments and nations expire in sulky soft uniform "pops" as the ephemeral vagina of darkness closes forever . . . lugubrious peasants wail and mourn on the brink of evaporation . . . forgotten pitchforks rust throughout the plebian countryside . . . corpses rust in the musty earth . . . everywhere succumbs to rot and decay . . . extinction of the human race-track as we know it . . . the ghost ship speeds towards the edge of the universe . . . only one way out:  break through the walls of time . . .

Like a knife to the wrist arteries drained sporadic spray paints a crimson picture never the same outcome twice.  now that's art.

Cold water night freezes out the daemons but not the need.  healthy winged steed steady she rises personal animate periscope allowing one to view God's abode.  trickle dream image fireplaces and carnivals blaze visual porcupine of light.  detach the limbs with no discernable discomfort, painless dismemberment, spontaneous amputation of cerebral cortex, leaves a dry worn out husk of useless body, exemplifies Cartesian dualism.  fix me a prosthetic brain of ivory make Ahab envious.

A vast information machine on the blitz, network of humming smoking wires fried in an eternal instant . . .

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Energy drained, the sun goes out like a distant light bulb with a soft effervescent pop . . . the earth follows, dying with a faint pathetic technological murmur . . . the universe collapses in a swirling vortex of negativity . . . an infinitude of dead stars sadly whisper solar breath across windy galaxies, a silent scream in the face of inevitable extinction . . . where does one bury an expired universe?

This is no Apocalypse; there is no Revelation:  only off.  Only nothing.

© Sartisohn 2003